Saturday, May 01, 2010
I had two birthday cakes this year! My sister had this cute cake made for me. I dont think I have ever had a cake that had my name on it so I was very excited. Also at her house she has this really cool tradition where they turn all the lights off, light the candles and sing happy birthday. She did this for me this year and it was neat.A traditon that I will be adopting:) I felt very special on my birthday thanks to everybody!
Thanks for the beautiful flowers Tiffany!!
So I usually dont post about myself very often but here goes...
I think I am doing much better today than I was a year ago. I know 30 is too young to have a midlife crisis so maybe that is the wrong word to descibe my little break down? Turning 30 last year was a milestone birthday for me. It was a long time coming but I took a serious look at my life and evaluated what all I had accomplished im my 20's and realized that while I had some great times there had also been alot of not so great times. On top of that I really didnt like the person I was becoming. So here I am a year older and MUCH wiser. After ALOT of self discoveries I think I am on a new road to living a much happier life. I have learned that my happiness depends entirely on myself and my additude and that I cant rely on others to fill in the blanks. I decided that my trials in life are just what I have needed to become a more patient person. I admit that I am extremely resentful and bitter and that I probably have no one else to blame for that but myself but I am desperatly trying to let go of my grudges. I am so grateful to those of you who have not judged but have loved us unconditionally. I am learning to lean more on others and I am so lucky to have people in my life that love me. I find that in my free time all I want to do is surround myself with the people that I love. So with that said, I am very hopeful for a wonderful future. You may be wondering why I am sporting the cute royal blue smurf scrubs in the picture? I was excepted into the dental hygiene program at Apollo and started in March. I am so excited and grateful to be there! If it seems like I have been MIA lately that is where I have been and will be until Dec of 2011, when I get my life back. lol.